Really hate tiz feeling

Since my room can online
i used to be in front of my laptop and 0nline
until very late at night
although usm hotspot sucks as it block some of the website
want to watch some online movie also cannot.. haizzz..
but i still dont understand why i can hang on it until so late
looking ppl pic's, ppl's blog, surfing some cool website
really need to stop all tiz
this make me lazy to go go to class as i m tired cuz on9 till v late
hate myself for being like this
for the whole week i use to e going to class once which is yesterday
yesterday went to visit the company, iq group
its a small company
and wat make me worry is that
i need to start driving again as i need to go there everyday during the sem break
what can i do with that?
driving seems to be nightmare for me
hate all those feeling that make me afraid of the future
always get to dream dat i cant sempat to break my car and accident
i always get to mati enjin and my driving skill sucks
but ireally need to have more confident and faith in doing wat m i suppose to do
dont juz keep on saying that i need to change
but at the end i don even move
juz give me some time i'll stop using the net
i need music when i study and my cd player spoilt d (y choose now)
so again i need to open my laptop
again juz gv me some time i'll learn driving frm all ovr agin
Hate this feeling when need to start frm zero again
war between my brain and heart always happen
the heart want to online
but the brain say u nid to stop it already
the heart is scared to drive again
but the brain say u hv no f****** choice
ppl always say we need to follow the heart
but wat about me?
we always need to the RIGHT thing.........

Something to say

Going to cameron will be a boring trip
this is wat i think in the very beginning
but after going the trip it make me feel like
going out for a holiday with frenz is really fun and wonderful
it may not be perfect but the process, experience and memories
are the main thing

the thing that make me regret a little bit is..
something dat.. wat i always did
really want to apologize to those who get hurt with wat
i say or did during the trip
this thing always happen to me
i will regret instantly once i say something dat i souldn't
then i was like "wat did i say juz now?"
so i am here to say
i..am..sorry
things get tough when i realize something wrong
wif my speaking conversation
bcuz of my personality and weird behaviour
ppl can misunderstand wif wat i say
ppl juz cant differentiate between complement and complain
through my conversation
again if u misunderstood
i am sorry again..

for making this trip a success
really need to thanks 4 everyone who r willing to spent
their "precious" time for this trip
thanks to the organiser
thanks to the chef
thenks to the 'dao you'
thanks to the joker
thanks to whoever contribute for this trip which i didn't mention
thanks for being patient wif my attitude
thanks for not closing your ears when there r loud noise
thanks for letting me win in most situation
thanks for taking care of me
great to you guys as my friends...