笑与哭

笑是一种礼貌
笑可以培养
耳朵有问题的我
都是用笑来替我沟通
听不清楚，就笑
想要有亲切感，就笑
从小看着阿妈都是笑着面对每个人
从陌生人，邻居，店员，亲戚，朋友，上司到长辈
就这样学到了笑的力量
慢慢的就从微笑
变成了哈哈大笑
认识我的人就觉得这女生很好爽
认识我的人有两种
一是会很喜欢
二是非常讨厌
不认识我的人
就以很奇怪的眼神看了一眼
然后
一是非常反感
二是跟着笑
往往都是一比较实际啦
这种笑都是不自在的礼貌

真的感情是。。
看见宝宝，我会笑
听见喜欢的音乐，我会笑
看见阿妈笑，我一定笑
回想以前童年回忆，我会笑
看见朋友笑，我会跟着笑
知道他关心我，我会暗笑
看见人跌倒，我会哈哈大笑
一起讲别人的是非时，
讲得非常起劲时，
只有我们明白而已的时候，
我会狂笑
感动时，我会笑然后哭
看见朋友都是双双对对时
我不知要笑还是哭
压力时，我想哭
在报章上看见无辜的老人家被谋杀时，我会哭
害怕又无能为力时，我会哭
看见蟑螂，我会吓哭
吵架时，要哭了但强忍眼泪
心情不好时
压力大时
活得没目标时
活在这四方的盒子里时
又看着感人节目时
加上身边没有人时
我会狂哭。。
一定会

死气沉沉

作天不知为何死气沉沉的
没心情
不想笑
睡不着
没目标
好无聊
好无奈
厌倦了
只有
花钱了
就笑了
想起它
就笑了
电脑中风了
疯了，病了
很严重的那种。。。

addicted to..........

Now only i start to realise the power of.....
SHOPPING!!!
went shoppping on wednesday
skip meeting ah ching n went shopping
is like shopping is more important than fyp
no la.. its bcuz cny around da corner d
some more got sales until 1st of jan oni
then ma faster buy n buy n buy
for da first time i don feel tired walking
da whole prangin
laz time i will sit evry corner my fren shop
i m happy when they went in shoe shop
bcuz there is chair
but dat day i m so high at buying
until almost rm300 n some more draw money ay maybank
only i know y gals like shopping
da feeling of spending money is wonderful
especially spend a lot make me even wan to spend
like a drug addict
wan to shop again
i m so addicted
spending money on urself is real fun fren...
come on!! lets go shopping!!!!!
buy watever without looking at da price tag!!!!
yeahhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!

explode!!!

i cant take this anymore
shocking news make me wanna crazy
knew i was fooled 4 ten years
final yr project crack my head
hostel suddenly say may b wan move 2 bakti
so stress on da project
cant really take it anymore
din meet ah chong for almost a month
things get tough
evryone in da factory has da same expression
stress on work
no fun n anticipated for friday oni
friday wan go sing k
doing da project
zemax software
rw keep on sayinng y beh absorb
supervisor mood oso no good
everyone bo mood
monday school start d
things stack on n on
i wanna fly away!!!
leave here!!!
juz get salary bt mood still da same
no mood
i juz wan......
wan.....
to......
EXPLODE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

heart checkup

Dint go to work today
cuz gotta do my yearly check up
on my heartnot really yearly
if it get worse got to go in 6 months time
quite scary went to da check up alone this is da first time going alone
i think soeverytime mom or friend will acompany
da general hospital system
shock me actuallylast time appoinment 8am
will finish in da afternoonnow appt 10am finish at 12pmits
really good like this
the people can save time, save energy n save money
gone for my echo testthere is always a nurse
when da echo test is doneas they scared the ppl doing da echo test
will take advantage on the patient.. haha..
yeah.. luckily she is there
same question same answer
i am juz fine
thx GOD
it maintain
it will never recover either maintain or worsenoh
yeah.. the name of the problem called:
mild mitrael valve collapse
i don like to use the word diseaseas it sounds scary
then going back doing nothing
watch dvd from my bro's fren
there is a show 'the mia'is a thailand show
and it is da worse action movie dat i ever seen
its not actually actionis about 2 gang of gals
1 is first wives gang vs da mistress gang
2 gang fighting using weapon gun
and it is ridiculousthey missed every shot
then keep on dancing avoiding the bullets
oh god.. u gotto watch it urself then u'll understanthen
juz now went 4 dinner
dad n bro quarrel bcuz of the stupid 'beh dao'(horse beans)
having a headache nownearly punch dat mercedez juz now
thinking bout my fyp
tml got to work again
it really make me tired...

(posted on wed morning)

A big family story

There is a big family
with ten brothers and sisters
7 girls and 3 guys
they had a big dinner to celebrate
their mother's bday
everyone attend except the youngest

the eldest:
he is a man with a happy family
he is the most normal
a bit of stingy
protective of his son and daugters..

the 2nd (girl):
the eldest among the girls
she is da 'dua ji' (big sister)
everyone has respest 4 her
listen 2 her
scared of her
as she is always rite
she went 2 da dinner earliest
but end up getting mad as evryone is damn late

**the 3rd (girl):
this the thing dat i wan to write
she is da most most selfish person
but the most protective and generous mom i ever seen
shark fin is served
there is still another bowl left
she quickly said
"oh.. this 1 leave 4 js"
everyone keep quiet
as she treat for da dinner
even she is not da one treating
she wil also act da same
the fish is served
she picked best and biggest portion for her son
then another big portion 4 her another son
finally her other siblings and relatives
ate the rest dat she left
she talks without thinking
a lot of fight start from her
housewife married wif rich husband
everyday stay at home
no communication skill wif ppl
dat's y she became like this

the 4th (girl):
she is da only girl still single
her mom always kuah beh ki her
bcuz she is still single
she put other ppl b4 her
she is not rich
but always has da heart
rich inside..

the 5th (girl also):
she is da hottest girl among all
mini skirt, tattoo, high heels..
her daughters follow her steps too
sexy hot young lady (but younger than me)
her husband look like a hak seh wui dai lou
he wears earing on his right ear
(i wonder whether he knows wat it means)
the whole family is like WOW!!!

the 6th (girl):
married with a performer
her husband is a carpenter and performer
always get to perform at hotel or any function
her husband won da malaysia tv show "chan ku yi ding"
he is kinda of star when he attend da dinner
her daughter follows her dad
become hyperactive
as u know a performer u nid to very confident
and brave to perform
so she sing, dance, jump, run, acrobate..
watever action u can think of..
(i feel like a bit hao lian, bat ji so wai)

the 7th & 8th (boy & gal):
they are twins (long fong tai)
but they don look alike
the guy still single
he is a plyboy
always think of a way to know gals
then use her money
no matter young or old
he used 2 bathed an old rich lady
(shhh.. don say so loud..)
a lot of stories from him
very talkative
he knew a prostitute
and tell da story to his siblings
n evryone laugh

his twin sister
talks very soft but
is very fierce when somebody step on her tails
talk without thinking
make her separate wif her husband
but now..
the r back together
after 10 years perhaps
happiness is clearly on her face
on her daughter's face too

the 9th (girl):
married wif a very matured guy
her son is like cacing or monkey god maybe
very naughty n mischievious
her daughter is da youngest among all grandchildren
juz a normal family

the 10th (guy):
this youngest child is the family's diamond
the father n mother like guys more than gals
plus he is da youngest
so he got everything he wants
he is ver smart n genious may be
very hardworking
study till phd at US
wat course? physics.. haha..
study, study, study till...
until......
he is mad!!! (shhh.. again they will kill me)
(juz pretend u dunno)
the mom n dad hate ppl call him mad
they will say:
'if mad how can study so far? har?
can u do it or not?'
then evrone keep quiet
he is till at US so he din attend da dinner

such a big family
big problem, big quarrel, big happiness
big story, big secret..
everything is big
when the mother get sick
10 children gotta share the responsible?
no no no...
da richest gotta pay more for da hospital fees
da poorest can juz keep quiet
evryone know u cant afford

i am the 2nd daughter's daughter
being da third generation
seeing those life
i can do nothing
keep silent
watching, analysing then learn

(if anyone of them seen this page
i am dead
but this da truth
hope u can forgive me if u read this..)