So glad... yeah!!!!

So happy today
we went sing k
its juz dat it seems like
they are fighting 4 da loudest voice
where is da beauty of singing?
always cant hear my voice
1 of them juz follow the wording on screen
1 of them luan luan sing
1 of them sing very extremely loud
where i dont even hv a chance to listen 2 my voice
b4 dat i knew dat already
so purposely pick english song so dat
i can sing alone
but they know da song.. sigh..
but some other song they dunno i sing alone
ko scared they fell boring
ko not really know how 2 sing
so sing halfway nia
(next time m gonna choose tougher song n practice)
meet wif a long time no see fren
actually very scared 2 meet wif those long time no c fren
cuz dunno wat 2 say
but it turn out 2 b ok
i m such a watermelon
tough outside, say wanna met la, cum out la, gathering la
but inside, when everyone meet dunno wat 2 say pula
but its really great u know if we can still click
then suddenly realise tis fren is the ex-classmate
of my another fren
so they began talk bout their ex-classmate, teachers watever
its so amazing
its like bcuz of me they meet
they never met since primary school
u can say its fate, ming zhong zhu ding, tian yi or any words u can say
then keep on walking n chating
juz keep on round the whole gurney dunno doing wat
keep on teasing my other fren
n i laugh so loud until we met another gang of fren
they uncertain wif physics law
where light travel faster then sound
they heard me then saw me
wave then say hi n bye
later is da most interesting part
yest went gathering wif f6 fren
talk bout person u 'an lian' during primary
i talked bout tis guy
n today juz now
i saw him!!!!
i m so f****** shock!!!
i juz looked n i can recognise him already
i never saw him since primary
he is dtill da same i mean his look
but more socialable
my mood bcum extremely good d
then treat evryone ice cream
every single thing make happy
i love this!!!!!!!
its really a HAPPY chinese new year...
i f****** love it!!!!!!!!

烂新年，吃药了

什么烂新年的
小弟上班了
不想和家人去拜年
因为会像白痴一样
坐在那儿
他们说得有说有笑
我就坐在电视机面前傻笑
干脆自己在家看戏哈哈大笑
fyp不停的在脑海里飘过
我就不停的把他推开
把眼睛闭上
喊一声然后
把它推开
已安排好的一切
又毁了
明明有了
又要更多
在也逃不过
药我找到了
吃了才看见目标
才知道自己不是疯的
可是吃多了会有后遗症
不吃又对不起自己
还想要更好的效果
很贪心
明年我一定要更好
一定要想办法
一定要完成
画上美好的结局

永远排最后

有时觉得让人觉得自己
不容易侵犯是件好事
自己往往都是
哎呀，随便啦，没关系啦，我无所谓
久而久之
人家就会觉得
哎呀，没关系啦，你应该ok的啦
reena不会生气的啦
自己的随便只是不想麻烦别人
买饭时老板都知道
我比较随便
就慢条斯理
其他令人讨厌的三姑
就可以得到他们所要的小要求
自己却在为老板担心
怕麻烦而不要要求
处处为人着想
人人却忽略你
一直想他人到底会怎么想
连那只可怜的大鱼怎么会被
关在一个没有布置的鱼缸里
他不会寂寞吗
所以一直都不敢养宠物
难道他们就没有自由的权利吗
看到蚂蚁就吹掉他
看到蚊子也让他钉
像这难道他没有活着的权利吗
就这样慢慢，慢慢的
自己永远排最后
好像说得自己好伟大一样
但我就是这么做
总觉得没有生气的资格
怕生气起来
人家会害怕
怕人家会说自己小气
因为自己很害怕人家生气
常常做不出决定
容易被人影响
没有原则
明明真的超不爽
还必须迁就
难道我就不会生气吗
别人生气
还要想办法斗他开心
现在比较不会了
以前的我更加离谱
人家生气了
还要我说
你生气了吗？不要生气嘛。。
回想起我真的好笨
干麻做这种事嘛
我生气时他才懒得理你
人家知道你随便
就爬上你头上
踏了上去
放屁还大便
人家说说几句
我就。。啊，好啊。。随便啦
不想看见人家失望的样子
很想装一下酷的样子
高贵一点
要求多一点
不要这么容易满足
很想偶尔耍点小脾气
把臭脸摆在脸上
要说我不喜欢！
我明天就要！
要学说不！

Alwayz there

Watch a show recently
i have tis feeling。。。

"GOD loves everyone"
no matter wat u did
HE will always forgive u
HE will give u another chance
HE will find another way for u
HE care
HE tries hard to save u
bcuz
HE wan to c u happy
HE want smile n laughter
HIS way of solving problem is not easy
HE need to solve every problem fairly
without offending the others
sometimes HE breaks HIS own rule
sometimes we complain bout HIM
but HE never keep inside
i dare not say HE made mistake sometimes
may be dat's the way HE works
let HIM do his job
i know HE is trying hard
i know HE is busy recently
with those wars between israel n palestin
millions of ppl need HIM
HE need to listen to millions of prayers
so when is my turn??
sometimes i think i lost HIM
feel so tiny dat HE cant c me
but evrytime
when things gone wrong
after sometimes when i start to forget bout HIM
suddenly it is fixed..
then i realise.......

HE is always there....

thoughts disagreement

Thursday management claz
dai lou n luis ask me whether my
'a big family story' post is real onot
of course its real
they said its very interesting n
ask me to publish a book..hahaha
but...
today i told my mom
n she is quite dissapointed
wif my attitude
she said 'jari at jib bo at chut eh'
means fingers grip inside but not the other way round
means family matter will always
be secret among family only
family always cum first
blah blah blah
she gv an ex:
u tell others u cum from a poor family
1 day a person lost his money
da first person ppl will think about the thief
will be YOU!!
u know wat
i get her point its juz
something i write is about da truth
y when ppl get older
they start to hide things here n there
berpura-pura n it make me feel so fake
its like actually i hate u
but in front of u
i kesi kesi act like i still like u
i didnt mean dat they hate each other
they r such a big n normal family
after quarelling they start to talk da nex day
like nothing happen b4
some more
i dint write bout my mom, dad or brother
i wite about some one farther
but 4 her its her family
dat's y she cant accept it
may be i m a bit over da limit
i really dunno
if it's like this
wat's da point of blogging?