it slipped

i wan a thing
i got it
then i let it slip away
by making a decision
a correct decision
to please everyone
choices that i made
place me here
at this point
right here...
this damn ass coordinate
now...
i will never ever get it back
is this something GOD trying to hint me?
or r u trying to prove something
or r u trying to convince me
r u trying to tell me...
don push away watevr thing i have??
if i don push
if i don make decision
will life be easier?
i was born to make ervyone happy
i was born to please ervybody
i never live for myself
bcuz i have a bigger mission
a bigger responsibility
trying to gv a lot of excuses
to cover up the decision i made
its actually a right decision
is juz dat....
i m gonna loose them....
n i hate dat
dat suppose to be mine.....
i said " i never believe in 'keep in touch' this 3 words"
it doesnt mean i don care
is bcuz i don hv faith in dat anymore
i m scared of making committment
n i m scared they will 4get me
dats y is better not to hope
is better to be selfish than sorry.....
although i don have faith in believing
i believe in fate....
i'll be waiting.......